stuck being alive
people always think: "oh im gonna do a good thing and stop this person from killing themselves"
but they dont realize that sometimes it can do a lot more bad than good. maybe the person has a bad life because they cant find anyone that will stay to talk to. maybe someone doesnt know what they will do and they genuinely suck at everything and have no future ahead of them.
i hate not being able to do it. i hate that people try to stop me when i vent to them. they always say stuff like "it will get better" or "god gave you a purpose" or whatever. nothing ever gets better. i think they know what they are saying isnt true but they still say it anyway.
i think people should be able to kill themselves if they want to and get the resources they need for it if they don't know how to.
i wish i knew how to do it.. the world would really be a better place without me. i am a bother to everyone in my life but no one wants to admit it. i wish people were honest.. i wish i wasnt stuck being alive.